Ugh, I'm so frustrated these days. I'm not working anywhere. I've been thinking about possibly doing Chaturbate. But I don't like how trans women are constantly fetishized. And I have way too much time on my hands during the day. All I do is job hunt, get no calls back. And I recently went through a thing for a few days, where I didn't feel like going on with my life. But I got over that, so I'm fine now.

I also don't want to have meaningless sex either. I told my girlfriend this already, and she means more than anyone in this world. To me, this whole casual sex thing is just mostly meaningless. It's fine just to do it, get it out of your system, and that's cool.

If I was doing some kind of porn, and making money from it. Then that'd be a little bit different, because it means something for me to make money. I'm not trying to hook up or be a couple/partner with someone. I don't need any of that, I already have someone who's the most important person in the world.

If any of you are able to have sex where we make a porno, and can make money. Then that's the exception. Otherwise, it's mostly meaningless to me.

If you are able to do that to help me, then please be a non smoker. 420 is perfectly ok, I am into that. Anything tobacco related is a huge turn off for me. Thank you for understanding.