Yesterday was the first time for many months since I was ‘wet’ down there, so I thought ‘Yes! This is it! Here’s our chance.’ I approached my husband and tried to get him mentally prepared to have sex. First, he kinda just scoffed and went back to his work. I let him concentrate on his work and have his space. Late afternoon came, I initiated sex with him and was brushed off because of how busy he was. I don’t know if you ever feel this way… you’re horny but at the same time, you’re turned off by your spouse. You know you want sex but everything he does, doesn’t help to get the fire going. That’s how it was with him. Anyway, the evening came, and again I reminded him that today is THE day. He rolled his eyes and somehow diverted the conversation into wanting to relax with me with a movie. Ok fine, movie it is. After the movie, we both got tired and it’s bed time. Before going to bed, I suggested ‘maybe in the morning?’. He didn’t say anything. This morning, I woke up to him already at the computer, working. I just lost it and blew up in his face. He said that he WAS trying to get himself prepared but I ruined it when I walked in with my attitude. It’s all BS and I’m even more mad that he says it’s my fault we’re not getting any sex now. I’ve been more than patient with him but today is just not good. I don’t even want to be in the same room as him. I’m going to be 40 soon. Chances like this doesn’t happen every month. All I can think of is wasted eggs. Thanks for letting me rant.