Hi, I'm 20 years old, in mid August I found out I was pregnant, but I was bleeding for a month during that. The doctor said it's concerning I'm bleeding while pregnant and I'm such excruciating pain, like I had a tone of bricks thrown on me, so I went to the hospital for an internal ultrasound. We found out the egg never made it to my uterus, and I had an ectopic pregnancy, I never heard of that till that day. The same day I found out the egg was in my uterus I was advised to go to the emergency room, I did and I was giving an IV insert just in case I needed to go to surgery for it, I saw for hours, crying while my boyfriend held me and comforted me. While there I was giving a few options, surgery to remove the egg, (fuck that) or induce the process of a miscarriage along, as they expect I was in the process of a miscarriage already, hence the bleeding.

I am absolutely terrified yet thrilled to be trying again if that makes sense, I'm so extremely worried something bad will happen again, even if they did tell me that all this happening is a freak accident. I haven't told anyone but 2 of my friends, my family (mom and dad mostly) don't know anything about what happened to me, I didn't want to tell them in case of judgment or anything else. It feels good to let this off my chest, it's been making me feel like a failure to my boyfriend, and to myself. Thank you for reading.