Myself (24) and hubby (27) have been trying for a baby roughly a year and half and counting. We’re in the process of a fertility dr now, but so far there’s been absolutely no reason or definite answer as to why we haven’t been able to conceive. Here comes my dilemma….my SIL(hubby side,we’re not close to anyone on his side) is about to have the family’s first grand baby and i cannot help but feel insanely sad and jealous. Seeing her get showered with gifts, picking names… you get the idea, has been my personal hell. I so desperately want that to be myself and hubby. She’s about to give birth and i do not think i can physically see her after, let alone being involved-she is making insane restrictions on meeting the baby once born and I’m just going to use that as an excuse for as long as possible. I hate feeling this way but it’s just too upsetting for me. And my cousin is having a baby shower the weekend after (having her second kid) and I’m already thinking of skipping out of that too. Does this make me horrible letting the pain of infertility affect my “personal” life…?