This year I have had to Have medication adjustments so my seizures would be under more control by the doctors standards. I have felt extreme dizziness, fatigue, exhaustion, extreme depression, mood swings.. I have had to call out of work, miss classes, catch up on work/get extensions.

Due to one of my seizures for the last year I have had a dislocated shoulder, we thought it may heal on its own but it didn’t. I now had to go through arthroscopic shoulder surgery. I have had to wear the same shirt for three days. I can’t sleep right, I’m tired because I can’t get a comfortable way to sleep at night. I am now feeling so depressed because I did nothing besides exist for this to happen. I didn’t go bike riding, skiing, or anything fun I was simply sleeping. i’m afraid for my seizures take place only one and I’m sleeping but this is been affecting my mental state so much this past year. I may need to miss some of my internship hours and make them up at another time which is going to kill me inside. I feel like an inconvenience to my parents as they’re in their 60s and they have to help me out so much and I really just want to disappear. this is all hitting me so hard right now.

I really don’t know how much more I can take. I need to get my wisdom teeth removed at some point, I’ve gotten messages from my doctors about scheduling more MRIs as I have had non-cancerous cysts in my brain since I was born and in my kidneys and pancreas. since I’ve had so many MRIs since I was a kid they give me extreme anxiety and basically sometimes a panic attack. I probably have up to 32 of them.

The grammar and punctuation in this post is probably garbage because I have to use voice to text, and I am surviving submitting assignments through swipe keyboard and voice to text as well.