Ever since a friend of mine moved to another country I can’t help but miss our friendship. We clicked so well, and we had so much fun together. We would go for drives late at night just to listen to and argue about music, religion, and philosophy. it was the best.

It was so obvious to both of us and everyone else I’m sure that I was her simp. She knew it, I knew it, but we never said it. If she looked at me and puckered her lips she knew I would jump to kiss her. But she never did, because we both knew she was way out of my league. She was gorgeous, tall, had amazing skin and hair, and an ass that made you wish she’d walk away.

It was obvious I was her simp because even though I knew she’d never let me touch her I would take her out on ‘dates’ constantly. I’d take her to dinner, I’d pay for both our drinks at the bar, get us tickets to shows and put gas in her car during our late night drives. I gave her gifts and always put her first because she was just so beautiful and I loved spending time with her. She deserved to be spoiled and loved and I very clearly didn’t deserve her.

Part of me wished I had the guts to tell her that many times when we were out together I was locked in chastity. I wish I told her just because I wonder how she would feel about it. Knowing while we are at the bar laughing, drinking, and she was flirting with the bartender in front of me. I was locked up. It makes my heart sink even now thinking about it.

I would give anything to have something like that again. It showed me a part of myself I didn’t know existed. I knew I was a cuck, and loved chastity. But I never imagined I could let myself so obviously and blatantly be used like that just for a chance to spend some time with one of the most beautiful women I’ve ever met.

I miss you pip. I wish I could have you back in my life.