I’ve always struggled with sleep paralysis since I was a little kid like 5 or 6. I always see the showdowy figure in the left upper corner of whatever room I’m in. Then I feel the weight on my chest like something is sitting on me. For most of my life I could just feel the weight on my chest and nothing more but this past year things took a more physical turn. When it happens I feel hands grabbing at parts of my body almost sexually, and something tried to cover my mouth and my nose to where I can’t breath. sometimes it gets so aggressive I’ll be in pain but I can’t shake myself awake. It goes on for what seems like at least 5 min. Sometimes the only way I can shake myself awake is when my boyfriend hears me breathing violently and he tries to wake me. I want to go see a psychic but idk anyone reputable around where I live in Fort Worth Texas. If anyone knows someone please comment and let me know, sometimes I’m genuinely scared it’s going to kill me in my sleep.