I started to write something like this earlier, but never finished it, as it sits in drafts. The reason I never finished it? The girl texted me back after I thought she had ghosted me, which gave me hope. And now it's happened again.

I've thought she's leaving/ghosting me 4 or 5 times now. And each time she doesn't talk to me for a bit, a bit more time tends to pass.

Before I wrote like, over a page of detail on this, without even getting halfway through it, so I'll spare the details. All I want to say is that, I really like her. I'm 30, she's 28. We met in one city, had an amazing time together knowing that I would be moving. And now I've moved away. I had to move for a job. At times she gives me hope by saying stuff like "If you ever come visit, I would be open to seeing each other again". But then at times she goes ~ a week without a reply, and then asks if it's too late to friendzone me. She also sends me cute gifs, and says she thinks about me a lot. I know she's dealing with a lot in her own personal life. Apparently she was in a hospital recently, and never told me why.

She stalks my reddit, and will probably eventually read this. Apparently she even used a tool once to analyze my deleted comments and posts. I just don't care, I want her to read this. It feels like she wants me, but from afar. I know she's pretty introverted, like me. Maybe that's part of it. Like, we're both draining to each other, somehow.

Anyway, that's all. Idk how active I'll be in the comments, but maybe I can clarify some stuff.