To start, I (M 32) feel like im letting my family down. My wife (28 F), and son who just turned 5, decided to move. So in July, we reno'd our home, and put it on the market. After the sale, we walked away with a little over 450K. We have now moved, just my wife and I, leaving our son with her parents till we have a true home, considering we're staying in a maybe 400 sq foot apartment. My wife, immediately found a good job, as she works in automotive and is a very people oriented person.

I on the other hand, have not....

After we moved I got a union job in a grocery store, I was pumped. Union, indoors, decent pay, benefits. Only for the mortgage company to say "Sorry Mr SoandSo, you're a liability because you not in the line of work you have worked in." So basically, get fucked. Hence, I went to management to ask for a mortgage letter stating that I was full time, and not on probation. They laughed. I left.

Fast forward a week, I get a kitchen job. Only for it to be the greasiest, most unorganized, shit hole. The owner got mad at me for washing the slicer, after cutting meat. I said "as per food safe, it needs to be washed after every use."

To which he made some snide remark about, the chemicals cost out weighing the health problems. It sent chills down my spine. Fast forward 5 hours later, said owner made me a bowl of pho. Due note, it was the only thing I ate all day. I ate it reluctantly, because of the things I saw... from the slicer to sipping the pho broth directly from the ladel, and still stirring the broth after drinking from it....

Get home after my shift, relax, talk to my wife. I told her everything. Wake up in the bathroom at 9 am, covered in my own shit.

I called the owner to say I would not be back. I will not put my integrity as a GOOD cook, for some malarkey like that.

Now again, I am jobless, and we cant afford a house we need....

I cant really talk to my wife about how useless I feel. She needs me to be strong.

Thank you reddit, for letting me yak about something I can't yak about to anyone else....