I just so happened to sleep round a friend's house one Thursday night to spend more time with them. turns out the couch they let me sleep on in super expensive and I bent the back of it out of shape. they notice this a few days later however. now this friend waits days after I move cities to tell me I've broken it and she needs to be reimbursed because it's tied to her lease. I'm in no position to pay for it, it's just something I cannot afford as I don't & can't work. fortunately a family member has agreed to pay it off for me but I can't help but think this has ruined my relationship with this friend and I feel such guilt burdening the family member. I feel it's really made the whole friendship go sour. Like I don't know where I stand, like I should never go round again, let alone sleep over.

she hasn't checked in with me at all to see how I'm doing in my new place whereas other friends have and she's supposed to be my closest one. I know relationships are a two way street but I've not been well mentally so haven't been in touch. I know she might be going through a tough spot too but I feel as though 12 years of friendship has gone down the drain and equilibrium won't be restored until the money has been paid but I have no idea how long that will take. Or if after that time has passed things can go back to normal.

it's now been 7 months and she's barely said a word to me. I woke up today furious because I don't think I deserve to be treated this way over accidental damage and it's not like I refused to reimburse her. okay maybe I've not been able to pay back every month but things are tight in my household so it's not always possible to cough up the cash. she didn't even wish me happy birthday this year but her younger sister did. I don't know what to do I feel like I should terminate the relationship. I don't deserve to be cast aside this way for an accident. I know if things were the other way round I wouldn't have dropped her as a mate I personally wouldn't have asked her to pay me back. I think she resents me or simply doesn't care but I don't know what I did to deserve this. I've tried asking how she is but she just ignored me. I'm honestly over it.