I feel like my life is just below average or just average, average grades or less idk not good at practically anything sure im positive but i can get sad really easily and i feel like a piece of trash and people say your not or you smart or what ever but its not true and even if it was it wouldnt make me feel better why do you think i think these thoughts, because i have thouht about it alot my subconscious seems to be 50 steps ahead of me i always feel like people dont care about me the inpact their words have on me and my thoughts and feelings why cant people just understand that their words have impact and the low-life, quiet, loud, rambunctious, "happy", silly kid that has stupid looking clothes actually has feelings i just feel like an outcast my friend group is bland i dont really talk to them almost at all i never feel like i benefit others i never feel like anyone genually enjoyed my company and i constantly feel like im the annoying little kid that people dont want around then and are always judging me and i can never do anything right and whenever i make a mistake i feel like im doing something really bad and people seem to try to make me feel worse by being clueless or not caring i just wish people would actually care about other people and i just feel sad and ik everything i just dont know i hope that makes any sense at all.