I’m trying to change and notice my insecurities and improve upon them, same with self-esteem. This is something that I believe to be an insecurity of mine and I’m trying to fix.

I’m a pretty skinny person (if I’m shirtless you can notice my ribs) and not very intimidating. I notice that sometimes I do things to try and act tough. For Example: I sometimes swing doors open really forcefully, I wear shirts that make me look bigger than I actually am, I used to flex in photos to make my arms look more defined, I position myself to make myself think I’m strong, if I workout I do a few reps of anything then feel like a did a lot, I also check out my arms as if there bigger than they are.

I don’t exactly know where this comes from and it sometimes makes me look like a douche and I don’t really want to be that way, it also makes me look weak because I think I’m strong when I’m actuality I’m a pretty weak person. I want to realize why I’m doing this and stop it.

Thank you for taking the time to read, and have a good day.