im so fucking angry. they increased the price to mail internationally again. sending letters is my favorite thing to do. its whats been keeping me alive for so long, knowing that someone out there is waiting for a reply letter from me, someone is waiting excitedly for me to see what they sent, thats whats been stopping me from suicide. i cant stop writing letters because its the only thing i have to keep me sane. but now i cant even send stuff like i want to anymore so i dont spend too much. it hurts so much. to send stickers, cards, bandages, washi tapes, bookmarks and everything else...why does it have to be taken away from me? i feel so fucking sick. i wish i could just die so i dont have to deal with any of this. this is the only thing i truly love and i cant even have it. i fucking hate it here.