I told my ex my ex i had been raped in the past. The conversation really came up bc i was feeling very triggered that day and kind of just wanted a hands off moment and ended up needing to explain why. I (20F) told my ex-girlfriend (21F) what had happened and the first and last thing she says was “i want to get to a point in life where i can touch you whenever i can, whenever i want to” the proceeds to explicitly touch me.

now in my head i thought wow not a good time to say that but i’m just gonna step off bc now i want to rip off my skin. but i just move her off and pretend to make a phone call in the other room. but maybe i was overthinking that? maybe any person would say that?

now maybe i’m sharing this in the wrong group/community but i just bottle so much shit up and need to expel lit somehow. i’m too broke to talk to a therapist at the moment.