Last year for my birthday the family who took me in when I was 19 gifted me their last name...a few weeks ago they cut ties with me. Last year my biological mother stopped talking to me. I dont have any family, the only people I talk to are coworkers, I have my girlfriend but that's it. My girlfriend is at work today so the most exciting thing im doing today is starting occupational therapy. I can't even afford to get myself dinner. My favorite thing is Panda Express and I can't even afford that.

I feel like a little kid, alone and scared. I'm trying so hard to get better and be better, the only person who sees it is my girlfriend. But yet people who don't talk to me are going to message me or post on my Facebook saying happy birthday when they don't truly care. I just wish I could skip my birthday, hell I wish I could go in a cave for the holidays and come back out Jan 2nd