This motherfucker almost killed me. Thanks to his reckless drunk ass, I almost died from internal bleeding because he was going 67mph and the seatbelt I was wearing was so tight it actually caused a tear in my colon. I had to get emergency surgery and stay in the ICU for about a week, which felt like hell. I'm still in pain, both physically and mentally.

Before the crash even happened he was feeling me up and telling me what he wanted to do to me, he was forcing his mouth onto mine and grabbing me everywhere, and the more I pushed him away the more turned on he was, even when I said no. I honestly felt like a hostage, there was nothing I could do. God, I remember when I told him how I have trauma with sexual assault and didn't want anything with him, he leaned in and said, "Oh but you don't have to worry about that with me"

Honestly, if he hadn't crashed the car after that, he probably would have raped me. I realized he wasn't taking me home.

I'm only 17 almost 18 and graduating high school My year was already shitty and was filled with rejection, self-hate, and thoughts of suicide but now it's ten times worse. I don't see anything good in the future happening to me. I'm supposed to be filling out college applications but I honestly feel like I don't even deserve to go to college. I don't want to be alive, I wish I died in that crash. Every day it's hard to wake up. And everyone is just expecting me to keep up with school work and move on like nothing happened while I'm staying up at night scared of all the flashbacks and nightmares and wanting to just end it all. I even have the urge to hurt myself again.