This whole pandemic made me a germaphobe. That and also the fact I’m at hight risk of severe coving-19 if I were to get it due to my type one diabetes.

I’ve been staying at home for weeks, sanitising all groceries and packages.

But now the whole world is going back to “normal” ish. Many countries are starting to open and UK is somewhat on its way out of the lockdown too. We have slowed down the spread but that’s all it is. There’s no treatment, there’s no vaccine. We let people out and it is going to start spreading again.

I understand that we can’t stop the economic forever. I understand that many people are not fortunate like me and can work from home. Hell even many of my own colleagues are still going to work now.

I’m just scared. How am I ever supposed to go back out there. It’s not safe. And I don’t know when it will be safe. And it’s not in my hands to decide to work from home until I feel it’s safe. My job will tell me I have to go back sooner or later. And I’m scared I will die.