Is it bad that I really wish I could walk up to a kid with a terminal illness and just switch places with them? I want to have a terminal illness at a young age so I don’t have to live with losing my family. I want them to know that my time is coming soon so they have time to adjust to not having me around, I feel like it would save them a lot of pain if they just knew I was going to die instead of it happened randomly with no red flags. I’m only 19 and I really really don’t want to keep living. I have little to no motivation to experience the good things in life. I really just wish I could take the illness from a potential kid and just take it on.