Like I said I just need to vent about this really shitty week.

Alright so on wednesday I oversleept for my (new) job, some police sirens woke me up at around 8am because apparently there was an accident near my place. Which led to a massive traffic congestion and my way to work took about 40 minutes when it's usually only ten. When I arrived at work I caused an accident by hitting my coworkers car at the rear bumper in the parking garage. She will go to a shop on monday and tell me about the expense then, hopefully my insecurance will pay for them. So later that same day when I went home my phone fell on the floor and now I can't use my headphones anymore because somehow the audio input thing got damaged.

Last week was my first therapy session ever because overall I feel bad about lots of things that happened in my past and he gave me another appointment this tuesday. HE FORGOT ABOUT OUR APPONINTMENT. Which I can't even feel bad about because I realise he's just another human being with a lot going on in his life but bruh one of the reasons I go to this guy is to feel less worthless and I totally felt worthless after sitting there for 40 minutes and realizing he forgot about me. Fortunately I had another appointment with another therapist on thursday and apparently I got some sort of ADHD (i'm 24 btw, I will get tested for ADHD at a psychiatrist soon but I feel like this diagnosis is coming 20 years too late. But better late than never, I guess.) He assured me that he will help me to get some medicine, which is hard as fuck where I'm at, but hopefully I will have them in a few months and hopefully they will make me feel better.

Yesterday it war pouring outside and one of my coworkers had to bike her ride to a bank nearby so I offered her my car. Apparently she did something completely wrong while driving and she couldn't start my car anymore to come back. So I had to get there with another coworker and the battery was empty. I'm still wondering how the fuck she did this in a ten minute drive but I had to call my stepdad to come to my car and give me an emergency staring. Thank God I at least have my family and thank God everything is fine now with my car. I still ask myself tho what the hell she did to my car.

Today I went with my mom to a shopping mal, while driving I didn't really pay attention for a second (which is totally my fault) and took some guys right of way. Now I'm paranoid as shit that he wrote my license down or something and will sue me because he hooted at me and acted overall kinda agressive (which again I totally understand but I won't be able to sleep now for months over this). I really hate this paranoia but can't help it.

I can't even smoke weed to chill a bit because a few months ago I broke up with my ex and now I'm back at my parents. Overall feeling pretty shitty but I guess it could be worse.

Just writing this down for myself, so when better weeks come I hope I'm even more appreciative about them. Thanks for reading! :)

(Obligatory sorry for any spelling mistakes)