I feel this way a lot and there really is nothing to do about it. Everyone's busy with Thanksgiving so there's nothing going on. And to me it was just like any other day. I slept on the couch for a couple hours woke up eventually had some food and now I'm just mindlessly browsing the web.

I bought some video games yesterday but I just feel meh about the whole thing no interest in really doing anything. There's a game I feel like kind of playing but at the same time not really cause no one else really seems to enjoy it and it put me off the whole thing.

Outside of all that I'm just restless. I finally got a psych appointment and I spent quite a bit of time staring at the referral letter and the diagnosis my Doctor put, MDD, GAD, and suicidal ideation.

I feel it's hard to accept these things. Anyway I just feel distressed and miserable and there's not really anything I feel like doing to distract myself.

I really just want to hurt myself and make it all go away.