So I've been in a relationship for years (4-5) now and I don't want to be with anyone else. But, I have this fantasy that won't leave my head.

I don't want to have sex with other people, but I do want to do something sexual. They have these things called foot parties. Where you pay and can play with women's feet for a fee. Some people also apparently also bring their partners. I think it be fun, but it makes I just feel wrong for wanting this. I know she wouldn't enjoy it though.

She doesn't mind me looking at pictures online cause that's difference. And, if she sees me doing it all it brings up is her asking questions about it. Or she'll just ask if I'm horny and want to play with her feet.

Anyway I just think it be fun to go to one of those foot party things to together and have her pick out people for me to play with. Or look at models and have her pick which one she thinks I like best.

I just feel bad about having this fantasy and really wanting it.