I love my mom dearly, but for fuck's sake I'm this close to doing it. Ever since I mentioned I was bi our relationship has gone downhill. She started talking more negative about me, hanging around friends who are just assholes, and refusing to hear me out. And just last month I mentioned I was questioning my own gender orientation, and she freaked the fuck out. She went on a conservative tirade of how it's "unnatural." And worse, my depressive thoughts are eating into my daily life. For the past week it's been hard for me to feel genuinely happy. I want to move out, but I don't have a roommate. It also doesn't help that she thinks I'm "lazy" and "immature." For fuck's sake, a baby bird has to fall in order to fly. I feel trapped, unable to seek out help because I don't have the transportation to do it. And I'm afraid that if this persists at this rate I'm not going to reach my 19th due to the stress of it all.