This is simply a disgrace of existence. Nothing but a cursed life. A human being that is not blessed genetically. A brain prone to distraction and pain. Laziness and procrastination has extreme power in my situation. The lack of confidence in me, the lack of concern, the lack of care for life runs rampant. Here I am, another incel, making another Petty post on Reddit. I can't even bench press over 30 lbs. I've been a coward ever since childhood. I've done everything except been raped or been killed or been to jail. The will to live is shallow compared to the desire to die. It is a sentence we brought to this earth as a weak being. Plus, I'm tired of being poor. I believe my choices and actions over the years has caused God to turn a blind eye and a deaf ear towards me. The fantasy world has always been around and it has overtaken reality. All of these vices to escape only just to come back and even be in a deeper hole of reality. I just desire to go ahead and skip towards judgment Day. Perhaps it will be fun and entertaining to finally learn what God thinks of me and plus what he thinks of others maybe. I was just on here ranting.