Dating in the modern day sucks. I think most will agree on that point.

This weekend, I went to see the girl (27F) I've (31M) been dating for a month and a half.

Up to this point, we had been on the same page regarding our current status (exclusive with the intention of making it official in a month or two). We had also discussed long-term wants out of a relationship like children, marriage, our stance on religion, etc., so the major break points had been covered as well. She made it clear that she was looking for the same things as me, and we were happy to take our time getting there. Communication and honesty were traits I thought she and I shared as those are the two "musts" for a healthy relationship in my eyes.

Important to know - she deals with a relatively intense form of anxiety/ADHD. I'm no stranger to navigating this, and she is in therapy as well to work on this (for many years prior to us meeting). Early on, I asked point blank if she felt ready for a relationship, and if she had discussed the idea with her therapist recently. Both questions were given a firm "Yes". I'm ecstatic; she has tons of amazing qualities and interests that align with mine, and I feel we are truly aligned in every aspect.

For the past couple of weeks, I noticed that she would blurt out subtle hurtful statements that were not directed AT me, but rather, they had passive-aggressive intent.

Example: we are cuddling on the couch one night, and she says "I had a male best friend for the last 6 years that I cut off two nights ago. He and I spent most days together hanging out, but I realized he and I had no future together." Zero prompt on my end; completely out of the blue. I ask for clarity to understand why she said this, thinking that she broke it off out of some respect for our relationship, potentially? Which I would never ask of a SO unless that friend had clearly crossed a boundary. She responded, "No, I just didn't think I wanted to see him again." It was a comment that came off ice-cold, almost sociopathic? But, I also don't know their relationship, and I understand that there are details she might not be comfortable sharing at this point. So, I let it go, chalking it up to an anxiety/ADHD-related moment.

Back to last night, we are laying in bed, cuddling and watching a movie. She blurts out a random, unprompted thought again - "I feel like when I'm around other people, I hate it. I don't want to be alone, but I don't want to be around someone either." Of course, I am shocked hearing this and ask, "are you talking about me, or is there something else on your mind"? She looks up at me and says "oh, this is fine for tonight, I'm not having a bad time".

So, I ask her point blank, verbatim: "I've noticed that you speak in general terms occasionally with statements that sound like the could be digs at me. Is that something I'm over-reading into, or is there truth to that thought?" And she says "Yes. You're right. I like how you take me to fun events and dinner, but I don't want you around." I left immediately and told her to not contact me again as any sane person would do, but I can't stop feeling angry about it.

Why in the world would someone, anyone, do that to another person? I've done everything in my power to rationalize it from her perspective, and I just can't. I want to believe she's not an evil person, but the way she spoke with zero emotion during an intimate moment? It's not something I'll forget.

For anyone out there who does this and has some type of humanity inside, please save the rest of us and stay single. Work on yourself. Overcome your inner demons before you leave a wake of hurt people behind you.