It's not something I would do, but I have a very different view on sex than my wife. She is almost asexual and doesn't give a shit about sex whereas I am very much into my sexuality. I am a touchy feely person and and she is very rarely physical, even just regular touching.

Lately our sex life has been so very boring. Sex happens maybe once every other week and only if I initiate. Then it's as follows: I go down on her (if she let's me), she cums, and then I have sex with her. That's it. I've asked if she would be willing to try those HERS gummies but she said she just isn't interested. I've asked if she would be willing to explore and try other stuff and she just doesn't want to. Even kissing is boring-there's no passion to it at all.

The thing is now, I don't want to do the exploratory stuff with her anymore; I only want to do it with someone who wants to do it. The biggest turn on for me would be for her to want me. I mentioned that to her and she "oh stop it"ed me.

We love each other very much and make a great team and I am aware this is something that we really need to work on.

I have a differing view on sex than most as well: I think that sex can be passionate and tender and something special to share with your partner but I also believe that sex can also just be sex. People have been banging for fun since forever. I think that sexual monogamy is a construct of society and as such, it's very dumb, but that's the system we're in and I wouldn't destroy my relationship by cheating on her. Truth be told, for those that would say "would you be ok with her sleeping around?", I would respond with YES, I think it's fine as long as we're open about it. I believe that if you can be communicative about it, you can end up having fun with sex and not ruin any relationship.

I've started a new med that has amped up my sex drive like you wouldn't believe. My libido is through the roof which is actually awful for me because I am so pent up sexually and I am so bored with taking care of myself. I cannot help but look around me and see asses and titties everywhere. I'm straight but lately I've even been wondering what it would be like to be with a man, so I guess I'm bi-curious as well; I'm guessing it's the medicine because I've never had these thoughts before. I'm not even attracted to men at all but the thought of someone wanting me physically is a turn on.

I have been fantasizing about finding someone to have fun with while on work trips. I go away every once in awhile to different cities and it would be so easy to do. I've browsed subreddits like randomactsofmuffdiving or raos etc in the cities I've travelled to. The concept of unattached sexual fun is exhilarating to me. I would love to dl tinder and go HAM wherever I am but as I said before, I would not do that as we haven't had the discussion about it and it goes against her monogamous beliefs. My conscience would not allow me to live with that for the rest of my life without seriously harming my mental well-being.

I am going away for a trip this coming week and have decided I am going to explore other solo ways to take care of myself. There's an adult store on the way and I am gonna grab a few things that'll get my blood pumping without ruining the rest of my life.

I'm just very frustrated with the situation and want to be able to satisfy these urges but not ruin my life at the same time. It's really not a fun place to my mentally.

Edited for phrasing and misspelling