One person will get stiffed with the problems and that's all I'm afraid of. I don't want them to have to deal with everything. Don't get me wrong, that person isn't worth being around for im just not an asshole.

Life got nothing to offer a broke, dumb , weird, and ugly bitch like me. No body even knows im sleeping out of my car. I would be a Jane doe if it weren't for that person.

I'm angry at the world cause I'm 25 and didn't get to start anything yet before getting fucked over.

Ain't no one cares or needs my ass. It's an embarassment im writing out something. I know I'll need to write my own separate physical thing. It wouldn't even go to anybody how pathetic.

I'm extremely afraid of brain damage and being locked in my body cause I think inert gas is the way and I don't wanna go to vegetable city. I hate that being a vegetable is a threat.

I'm also scared of it making me panic of the concentration is not titrated in. I'm not an engineer I was just gonna tape trash bags to the cab, dump like a gallon of liquid N and just let it expand. I'm stunned.