My wife and I have had a up and down marriage for the past year. We have been together for 7 years and married 6 of those. Previously we took a break at the of January and of course I was trying to do everything possible for her to stay. I selfishly attempted suicide and was thankful that I survived and realizing now how selfish I was. However she didn’t visit me as I was hospitalized for two weeks due the extent of injuries and then of course I had to be evaluated and then released. I reached out after I was discharged via email and she responded and we talked off and through emails for a month because she had me blocked and would never answer my calls. She was afraid to admit that she was talking to me around the family she was staying with and I have a feeling this is because our marriage was in fishbowl with everyone she was friends and worked with. I’m an extremely private person when it’s our marriage unless I’m speaking with a professional specialist in that area. During that time frame my mother abruptly passed away unexpectedly and she wasn’t there or did not even visit. The reason I received was because she was still working on herself and she would have given in if she saw me. Our relationship has never been perfect, no physical abuse or anything, yes I could say hateful and hurtful things when I felt abandoned. So after 4 months of separation she came back home after being in therapy and also the same every thing was going good or so I thought. She asked me if she could resign her job due to her knowing that my sister and I received a large inheritance so I agreed now looking back I should have known better based off her repeated patterns of employment getting old after six months and she would be done. Literally 5-6 various jobs in two years. I could tell she was starting to get depressed and I thought I was addressing issues that she would have, feeling lonely that’s about all I got. So let me jump ahead to last week and she told me she needed a break again and was going back to where she was before. I was blocked 30 minutes after she left and didn’t hear anything from her until two days ago and she admitted that she went back home out of state. I was extremely confused about this since she was estranged from her mother. Then again I realized that who I was dealing with and only gonna be told what she decides. Never once was inappropriate or approached to have a conversation to address her concerns. I was told this via email two days ago. I respect anyone’s advice and yes I realize after writing this that it definitely isn’t gonna work but I love her regardless and I’m just trying seek answers however I’m blocked and she will only respond to emails when it’s convenient for her and that’s all. Since we are legally married I wanted to know should we start the process and the reply I get. Let’s email back and forth awhile and see where this goes…..again. I had gotten to a good point in my life just before she came home and now I’m struggling again with this all over. I do love her and care about her. I just don’t understand how a married couple our age blocks and avoids communication that’s not toxic at all. Thanks for listening I really needed to get this off my chest!