So this was a little bit ago but it's still bothering me even tho I talked about it with my boyfriend already.

So to start off my boyfriend has been having pains in his chest area we thought it was his heart it's not and now hes been having a hard time breathing so I think that's why I has this dream.

So in my dream my boyfriend at the time of the dream he was my husband and he was laying in his bed skin and bones he was dying. There was nothing they could do to save him and he was,so tired so so tired and he decided to go with assisted suicide cause he was gonna die anyway.

So I was obviously very upset with this decision but ultimately it was not mine to make and would be selfish to try and convince him to stay when it would be to painful for him to be here still.

(I know this is not how assisted suicide would happen but in my dream it was) so as they were preparing him and making him comfortable. I had to dig his grave at first it was to small then to big and then just right. Then it skips to them lowering him down in the coffin for some reason he didn't have a blanket so he'd be cold and it was to late to give him one. Then I looked at my watch and it was 12:07 pm and he was gone there was no way to get him back his family was so upset with me for not trying to convince him to fight and apart of me felt so guilty too.

Then I woke up scream sobbing. the grief I felt was so real and even now typing this I'm crying. like what the fuck it was dream he's alive he's okay.