I recently started to binge watch SVU. Started at S1. In like a month and I’m on S10.

Recently I saw an episode about someone who was snatched (I know half the episodes)

When I say if that happened to me. I would develop Stockholm syndrome. Not in an edgy way.

“If you get kidnapped. Pray he klls you because I am not looking for you.” “You better hope he keeps you and doesn’t rpe you every day.”

I heard those everyday. From my single mother as an only child. I was 13. If someone took me and would convince me this was my better life. I would end up falling for it hearing the things my mother would tell me. Is that what parents do? I thought it was unconstitutional love and support. I’m sorry I was growing. I still believe my assaults were my fault until I was 22.

May if I did let that man give me a ride home that night at 11 pm I was walking home from school. Or the many times you wouldn’t pick up the phone after school and I walked 2 hours home. I just cried and ran. Hearing your voice telling me “gods going to punish you.” Maybe those men could have convinced me they were my saviors