You never cared that I cried. You never cared when I was in pain. You never held me. You never treated me like I treated you. I hate you. I hate you for making me feel like this is my fault. I hate you for only trying to get your feelings across and never hearing me. You think you begged for me first? As you should have with all the bullshit you put me through. Now what do I have to show for all those years huh? All my fucking tears in a basket cause God knows we couldn't even afford the eggs. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you so fucking much that you never fucking wanted me and you let fear choose your directions in life and dragged me down with you. I had a home. And I can't deal with how I feel anymore. I'm tired of being being angry and sad cause you cause you never gave a fuck until you finally fucking saw what I was trying to tell you all along. You're fucked up. You're an awful person. And you will never make me feel anything but distain and disgust by you. You are the grossest human being alive and I can't stand it. I can't stand how you can dress your self up like that and still be so horrendous and foul. You were never meant for me. You never deserved the love I gave you. All your post on here prove it. Fine never speak to the mother of your children. Never take a glance in my fucking direction again. Post all the shit you want. Just as long as you know. You were never the victim and now there is someone that loves and wants to love me and doesn't ask anything of me and doesn't complain when I speak or cry or laugh to loud. He is my actual light in darkness and he doesn't deserve someone that has to learn to love all over again because you didn't have the balls to be honest from the start! So fine. I'm fine without you. I'm fine..I don't think about you..I don't cry about you...I don't drown myself in alcohol or drugs because of you anymore. I don't have nightmares about you leaving me everyday no more. I can wake up happy. I'm fine..I'm fine...I'm fucking fine man.....