Well this is a very long story, I’m not writing this to make anyone feel bad for me it truly helps me to just write.

I don’t even know where to begin. Life is fascinating to say the least. To just think somewhere out there is a person who experienced life so differently from yours and can still feel the same you have felt or feels something completely different. We were taught that each day of our lives brings new experiences and lessons shaping the person we ought to be. You experience a mixture of emotions from happiness and sorrow, success and failure, love and heartbreak. How life is so unpredictable but how something being unpredictable is great because you never know what to expect and how life is one giant mystery and none of us really know how life is but we should make the best out of it and we are all students to life. …and I can go on and on how life is suppose to be looked in peoples eyes. Anyways I guess this goes into my next point. I’m very young, 18. Most of you will probably even laugh at this once you read it and that kind of makes me smile because maybe I’m just going through a tuff phase and it’ll be over soon. Anyways I could tell you my whole life story and that sort but you will be here for 18 years reading it. There’s a joke somewhere in there. I’m not where I want to be in life and I think a lot of us can relate on that. I just really hate where I am in life. I hate the depression, I hate not having friends, I hate that sometimes I feel like I want to die, I hate how I look, I hate no one looks at me, I hate how I’m failing my third semester in college, I hate that my ex broke up with me, I hate how I developed some kind of porn addiction, I hate I can’t find a job, I hate I can’t just look pretty in a video and get a million likes on TikTok… there’s lots of things I hate in my life right now. I’m just very lost. I’m in therapy but I am still lost, what do you do when you get in this point in life. What am I even learning from this challenge in my life. Where do I go from here? I have no idea.