You ever get that feeling? Everyone is telling you otherwise yet they dont want to have you around either, not before , not now and probably not after today. I am a people pleaser and its probably the most damaging trait I have, I always put other peoples interests and needs before my own , plus I get attached way too easily. Whenever I meet anyone, be that online or IRL I always need to be the one establishing contact, I have to message first, reach out first, the responses get less and... It kind of doesnt matter if I did something for them, Im not useful to them anymore. Not fun to keep or simply annoying in their eyes- All I want is seeing the people I care for happy but when those people proceed to not care for me at all it simply hurts so much...!!! The truth off my chest is that I cant keep going on like this... Ive tried but I need to admit I lost. Wish people texted me on their own accord, made efforts for me even if its just small things or simply gave me a feeling of validating my actions toward them '-' . These thoughts circle my mind constantly. Thank you for reading this. 😔