On mobile so apologies ahead of time for any errors.

I cook amazing meals, I made our house a home, I work a full time physical job and pay half the bills- on top of buying all of the groceries and household products. None of this has ever bothered me, life is expensive and it takes a team.

Until this weekend- we’re both off due to government styled jobs for the week, and so far I’ve cleaned the house from top to bottom, made meals, ran out to do the grocery shopping, put together an entertainment center that he said he’d help with due to the weight (he didn’t he napped) and then started unboxing the drum set this morning that I bought him for Christmas. Then it hit me, he doesn’t help because he knows I’ll complain but eventually do it. Example- I brought the drums up 2 stories of stairs, asked him to please move the box into the corner of the room so it was out of the way for the new living room things and he kept insisting “he would get to it” big surprise he didn’t, I moved it, then he told me he’d set it up 2 days ago and it’s still just sitting half Open in the box.

All this man does is sleep, play video games, and make a mess. It’s not depression he’s just honestly that lazy. Even sexual needs aren’t met unless they’re his, and at this point after typing all of this out I’ve realized I’m quite literally a bang maid.

Have brought this all up to his attention before, have asked for effort, dates, back rubs, and he’ll get better for a few days and then the old habits slowly but surely come back.

Not even angry, indifferent maybe but not angry. I won’t put the drums together, they can go back into the box and collect dust for all I care. Funny how those drums made me realize there’s someone out there that would return all the love that I pour out, but it hasn’t and never will be the man sleeping in the next room. Probably the best damn gift I’ve ever bought.

Happy new year y’all.