for context my partner and i are both 25, (fm), and now, as of recently, long distance. i love my boyfriend. He treats me better than anyone has before. He makes me laugh, i can talk to him about anything, we’re best friends & we’ve been together for about 3 years. Tonight he sent me a few videos of him mast3rb@ting but i cant help but giggle and awkwardly slide past them. I love him, and we have great s3x when we’re together, i feel fully satisfied, in so many ways. Besides this one snafu,, i just, am not attracted to his body. I feel vain for admitting it, and i would never want to say anything to make him feel bad about himself. But in the great scheme of things i am used to dating men with six packs, physically adventurous and veryvery active. He is not that, and I of course, still very much love him. It doesn’t matter to me that he doesn’t look chiseled and sporty - whatever, he’s a good person and i value him for who he is and what he’s able to contribute to the relationship. But i feel like an awful human being for not being able to look at him and think “wow, you’re gorgeous, im so in love with you…which was always dangerous for me anyway. I definitely look at him in different lovey dovey gushy ways, just, not necessarily in this regard..about his body type. am i a terrible human being?