I find myself increasingly scared of death, and not because of the dying part. I won't be around for the advancement of human race into interstellar travel. I won't be around for the communion of intergalactic treaties. I don't believe I'll be alive to witness the revelation of intelligent life outside of earth. I realized that we were born extremely early in the human race and we won't ever be able to see the future that our grandchildren's grandchildren will inhabit. It's only logical for our future to leave earth and I am having a meltdown about the fact that I won't be there to experience it. The first of my memories is when I was baby. I don't think I've lived a life before this one and I don't think I'll live another one after.

And im torn about that right now.