I recently met this guy off reddit. We exchanged snapchats. We sent each other nude pics/vids. He looked really good in what he sent me & he gave off an attractive type of vibe with his personality.

I met him in person after chatting for a few days on snapchat & he didn't look like he did on snapchat. He didn't catfish, he just looked different & his vibe was different. He wasn't ugly, but I wasn't attracted to him.

I tried to find the nicest way to get out of the situation. I expressed some skepticism about his "open relationship", I kinda acted like I didn't fully trust his relationship was open. I then said something about how I didn't have time to hook up right now & I had to get to class(i did have a night class later & my school was an hour drive away). I told him I might hit him up after my class tonight or tomorrow. Then I left.

I then blocked him on reddit & snapchat. I was proud of myself for getting myself out of that situation, because years ago when I was younger, I would have slept with him even though I didn't want to, just to be nice, not reject him, and not hurt his feelings. But even tho I was proud of myself I still felt bad for him. I hope he didn't know I wasn't attracted to him(he probably did), I hope he thinks I left because I was skeptical about his open relationship.

I'm just going to be single & sexless for the rest of my life because I don't like this. Like honestly I haven't met up with a guy from the internet in years & this just reminded me how many times this happened to me in the past, and like I said previously, in the past I would just sleep with them to be nice. But now I told myself I'm done sleeping with guys I'm not attracted to, so if I meet up with a guy off the internet & I'm not attracted to him, I'll have to find a way to reject him. I have been contemplating rather or not to start back online dating or not but after this guy I really don't want to. I don't want to be put in this situation again. It just sucks because starting romantic relationships with guys IRL is so hard.

I reject guys IRL all the time, BUT it doesn't bother me because I don't lead them on. They'll express interest & I won't in return. I don't feel like I owe them anything. But with a guy I meet off the internet, who we've been flirting, sending nude pics/vids, he takes time out of his day to either have me pull up or he comes over to my place, he does all the preparation to bottom(i'm a top), all of that kinda makes me feel like I owe him. I know I don't, but I still feel like I do & I feel bad when I reject him.