Why am I doing this to myself? So if you’ve been looking at my posts, I get it. I’m stupid. 8-9 days we hadn’t had sex. She disappears off the grid (put her phone on airplane mode) for about an hour and a half.

I found a Plan B in the trash 2 days later. We didn’t have sex for almost an entire month after that. She was talking to the “interest” from work she had last year before we got married.

Says she only cruised around town (we live in a small, Midwest town) so she tells me “I went to Walmart to pick out our child’s outfit for picture day” and so I asked her to FaceTime me and let me help her pick the outfit.

An hour and a half goes by-she goes radio silent. No notifications, not responding to texts or calls, then I remember we are on a family plan with Apple…

Location turned off 1:24 minutes ago.

I’m getting concerned.

I left a voicemail like “are you okay? Was there a car accident?”

Then I found a plan B in the trash two days later.

I already know what you are thinking. Look at my previous posts. This is still happening and I’m worried about what she has done or is still doing to me. It’s not healthy. I’m losing my mind.