There’s not much left to work with. I love her. It’s obvious that it’s one sided. I got offered to be relocated for my current job but it seems Sketchy and unorthodox (under the table money, seems like felony shit I don’t want a part of). Corporate buyout. Look at precious posts. Laugh at my attempts to normalize myself and try to see if I could do the cheating thing-I can’t. I couldn’t. She could. It’s a never ending narcissistic catalyst to my own fuel for this dumpster fire. I love her, she makes me to blame for all of life’s hardships. It’s all my fault. I exist. I can’t take much more abuse from my job or this relationship. I love her, I’m willing to quit my job and find something else. She’s always giving up. Every fuckin day. I can’t keep torturing myself. I’m still here, I’m still breathing. I will be. This shit is stupid. See previous posts if you need context. This. This is stupid. I’m still stuck in this fantasy of “everything will be fine” but it’s not looking that way. Anyway. Here I am, pouring my heart to people that will say “fake” “repeat” “I’ve seen this before” “cry for attention” and well, fuck off to those, kindly. This is real, and this is my life. Believe it or not, this is taking me to an edge I didn’t think existed. I’m still here, and I’ll be ok. Just fucking stop with the bullshit and someone please give some real advice?