Found my wife’s vibrator on the dresser top this morning after being denied sex for 26 days. Ok, so you can have pleasure but not me? (I don’t masturbate-childhood trauma)

In previous posts and most recently she was talking to the guy she cheated on me with last year, less than a week ago. She says she has him blocked and is done fucking around, however I am still left depressed and unsatisfied. She likes to change her clothes into something provocative, basically lead me on and tease me, and it makes me feel like I’m going crazy.
“Is sex the only thing on your mind?” She asks me. Think about having a house for 11 years, and someone rips out the shower. A day or two goes by, you’re going to be thinking about that shower. As time progresses, all you want is a fucking shower. Maybe I’m in the wrong here, but I just can’t bring myself to “take care of it” myself