So I turn 20 today. Woo. I had a bad childhood and was robbed of most of it. I’m not having a meltdown at 12:32 am because it feels like all the childhood is gone. I’m 20. I cant even call myself a Teenager anymore. I’m 2 decades old and an adult and scared and I’m not ready. I wanna stay at home. And be a kid. I’m not ready to be an adult. I’m moving out at the end of the month and I’m so scared of everything and unprepared and I just wanna be a kid again. I’m sobbing in my room as I have done for years and it just feels so overwhelming. I wanna be a kid still and feel safe and know I have my parents to rely on but for personal reasons I honestly never had that. It’s all hitting now. I just feel like it’s all gone. It’s real. My childhood is gone and it hurts so much.