I'm writing this because I never thought I'd still be here writing.

During covid like most, I lost myself, fully lost every aspect of myself. Just freshly graduated from university I struggled for 3 years to secure full time employment, all my family and friends would talk to me about is when will I get a job etc, and it took it's toll. I tried, applying for hundreds weekly, I felt like a total and absolute failure. I was in a relationship last year that lasted just over a year, she mentally put me in a darker place, which I don't think entirely was her fault or was intentional. She often said how people in her past hurt her so I did my best to help, but I feel like she left me the way I found her. I hated every aspect of myself, I was always so skinny.

But I'm still here, with a job going to the gym 4-5 times a week and eating more. I'm finally getting there, I'm finally seeing the end of the tunnel, I'm finally becoming happy.