UPDATE / EDIT - huge thanks to all for your messages and support, I read them all and it really helps me cooping with the emotional distress ❤️ i was not expecting so much, it touches me a loooooooot 🥰

I already consider him from the past (6 years together). He doesn't even worth the status of "ex", he's nothing...

And for those who want a good laugh, this is still his position after long discussions:

1. He didn't do anything wrong, it was just sex for quick fun and stress release and I was not supposed to know about it. In his scenario he sneaks out from the window, go fck the neighbor, fulfills his chemicals, sneaks back home, go back to bed happier and everyone's life is better 🤷🏻‍♀️

2. I ruined everything by stalking him (it's an open yard with common pool between our house and the neighbors) 🤦🏻‍♀️

3. He's not my dog that i can hold on a leash at home. He has the right to do what he wants when he wants (how to counter-argue such a profound statement - right??!) 🦮

4. He says I am making an elephant from a fly. There's no need for drama here... And why do i keep bringing the miscarriage into this conversation? 🤯

Bonus: i behaved like a stupid bitch (his own words!!) 🤣 better laugh than cry!

Thanks again everyone, your support made the whole difference for me. 🙏❤️🙏