I'm about 6 weeks pregnant. Found out on Friday. Right away decided to get an abortion.

Let me start from the beginning. I'm a 22 year old college student. I met this guy on bumble, let's call him Andy. I was infatuated with him right away. He's handsome, funny, relatable. We had sex without a condom very early on. Our mistake. We were drunk.

We ended up not being good for each other. I broke things off two weeks ago. I found out I was pregnant on Friday. Since I was going back on birth control, I had to take a test before I started. That's how I found out.

I knew right away this would end in abortion..but I wonder. I know it's not a person yet and all..but I wonder what the other option would be like and where it would lead.

Abortion is truly the best option. I don't know Andy well enough..I don't have the money or ability to raise a baby alone.

I wanna be a mom..but not now. I'm gonna grieve the other option but I won't let regret consume me.

I wish my parents were here to support me. One has passed and the other one doesn't talk to me.

My abortion is happening Tuesday

Edit: I hate that I feel the need to say this. Please do not lecture me about it being a bunch of cells. My feelings are still valid. I can grieve all options and be curious about the what ifs. It's how I process that matters. Also, if anyone cares or remembers, feel free to check in on Tuesday. Also, I got off birth control almost a year ago because it was negatively affecting my mental health and wanted to give life without it a shot.

Update: thanks so much for the support. I had no idea where this would go. Also, if you are going to comment about me being irresponsible, everyone has a lapse of judgment they aren't proud of.

Post abortion update: Got to planned parenthood around 10 today and I am heading home now. My support person came and helped out a ton. It was easy but a little time-consuming. They did an ultrasound and showed me everything. I even took a picture home. Did a medication abortion since I was about 4 weeks and 5 days along. (I thought I would have been 6 weeks along). I am about to head to bed and just nap. Thanks for the support. As far as Andy, he's been unhelpful. Didn't even call to check on me this morning. And has texted nothing helpful either. Confirms my decision. He would have been a bad dad and not helpful the rest of the pregnancy.

24 hour update: I felt the need to post this since so many people are asking. Everything has gone well. I woke up this morning with no cramping. Seems like everything has passed. All my cramping yesterday was on my right side. Funny because the doctor and the ultrasound tech said my right ovary did "all the work"..have no idea how they would know that. It's the same ovary that had a cyst last summer...fuck my right side lol. I took the pills at planned parenthood and went home right away. I started cramping an hour in and had blood 3 hours in. Did an instacart order with a lot of microwave meals and favorite junk food. Some healthy as well. And just chilled all night..mostly slept. My support person was great and super helpful. And Andy is still unhelpful..I just blocked my number and moved on. I just hope he grows from this.