I want to start by saying I completely agree with her decision to terminate the pregnancy, not only was it was always her choice, but I completely support her and also wanted it.

Ok, this is the most intensely personal confession I’ve ever written. About a year and a half ago, I accidentally got my girlfriend pregnant. We were by no means ready for that, and she made the decision to about the pregnancy. Previous to this, I was dead confident that I never wanted kids, and never wanted to get married.

But as soon as we found out she was pregnant, I couldn’t stop holding her by her tummy, thinking about how sexy she would be with a baby bump. I never told anyone, because she was very sick, and was feeling very conflicted about the situation. I wanted to support her, and be there while she made this difficult choice.

Skip forward a few months, she had a chemically induced abortion, and we start having sex again. She was now on birth control, and we both loved the feeling of raw intimacy that ditching the condom gave. But I couldn’t stop thinking about getting her pregnant again.

I never told her or anyone because I know how traumatic it was for her, but now I think about getting every single woman I meet pregnant. I fantasize about the way the most off limits people in my life would look with my child inside of them.

I fell very guilty about this, and can’t tell any one I know, so I’m confessing to Reddit. I want to impregnate someone again so bad I can’t think about anything else. My google ads know it, and keep giving me ads for fertility and pregnancy test, and I immediately get uncontrollably aroused.