I’ve been into one of my friends since June. He’s one of my closest friends and we’ve bonded so much, I’ve been getting into what he likes and vice versa. We hang out all the time and game and we’re very physically intimate we hug and lean on each other and he held me to him one night in the car and we’ve had those really close moments and I stupidly let myself fall for him more. We were very one on one and he’d do things that made me think he liked me. I kept falling for him. For months and months. Closer and closer. Today he asked out another girl and she said yes and he keeps saying how she’s his dream girl. I’m nothing like this girl and I can’t do anything but tell him how happy I am for him. I’ve been crying all night and I can’t tell my other friends because it would make the group dynamic weird. It hurts so bad I know he wasn’t mine but god it hurts so bad. I thought he liked me. I hate myself for letting myself get into it. I have nowhere else to rant and open up and it feels like I’m choking on this.