After high school I decided to join the marine corps hoping to find purpose in my life. I went to boot camp July 26th 2021 and I graduated October 22nd 2021 it was the best feeling in the world at the time and I thought things would get even better after this. Spoiler alert they didn’t really. After boot camp and mct I went to the schoolhouse to learn my mos in Pensacola Florida where I spent 4 months. This is where everything went to shit. Mostly because if my own doing by not going and doing anything with friends and just staying cooped up in my room outside of school but I also was extremely home sick and I thought going home was what I needed to improve my mental state.

I eventually end up getting to go home after finishing my schooling and I was super excited but when I got home and started hanging out with my friends and family it made me realize that everyone pretty much forgot about me. It seemed no one really cared that I was back home aside from my parents. This made me extremely depressed. I just wanted someone to care about me.

After my leave period I went to my new duty station where I started working my new job. At first it was okay but after a little while just going to work going back to my room and doing nothing. I got extremely discouraged. I thought the marine corps would give me purpose and something more to strive for but I felt like I was living ground hog day everyday and kind of just running in place for awhile. I thought about killing myself one day after work. I took my car out for a late drive and just thinking in silence. I thought about just swerving off the road and ending it right there but I didn’t for some reason.

One day while I was at work I got put on a working party, basically just a side job that marines occasionally get out on because something needs to be done around the command, with a couple of marines. We had to go to the armory and inventory rifles which is probably one of the most miserable things I have ever done but on this day I got to do it with the most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my life. She was another marine obviously she was fairly new like me and the officer in charge of us pair us two together for this working party. I have never been more nervous in my life to try to start a conversation with anyone but this girl had me mesmerized. I eventually got the nerve just to start asking her some questions about her she actually had a few of the same interests as me and after the day was over I got her number and we started talking and hanging outside of work. We eventually decide to start dating and that day has been the start of my new life.

Fast forward 8 months ago we’re still together and better than ever. I love this girl more than anything in this world and I can’t be more thankful for anyone to be in my life. I thank a higher power for leading me to her because I don’t know what I would do without her. Right now I’m currently deployed about 8000 miles away from each other it’s hard on the both of us but she has been a trooper and has helped me get through the rough days out here. I plan to propose to her when I get back home so we can start a new life together.

I just wanted to share this with everyone because I know there’s people out there struggling with life just like I was and I want to show that there’s hope. Don’t give up.

Ps: I’m terrible at putting thoughts to writing so I hope I properly expressed myself but I’m sure I didn’t sorry if it’s hard to understand fully how I was feeling and to follow my story