I think I caught it before it really got bad though. about 2 weeks ago, I binge drank, a lot. Ended up very drunk, to the point I still don't remember most of what I did, except what evidence I have from friends that I was drunk. I drank, by myself, with no one else present, just to drink. Since then, I feel almost a need to drink. It seems like it's all I can think about some times. It just feels like, I need a drink, I need a drink. Where can I get a drink? That sort of thing.

I haven't drank a single drop of alcohol since then, and hopefully I don't, but some days, especially yesterday was extremely rough, and I almost purchased drinks on multiple occasions. Maybe I'm not an alcoholic, or I caught it before I did become one. Hopefully I can get the help I need soon.