I’ve been so bitter and angry towards God I gave up trying to pretend I cared about worshiping or going to church. Just tried to show up, hear the sermon and go home. It’s all I could muster anymore. But today, I didn’t raise my hands or even sing a whole song, but forced myself to sing along with some verses. Better than nothing, I guess.

Also, I posted a few months ago about an 11-month old child in the church who suffered heart failure. Today was the first Sunday since then that the parents were able to bring the child to church. She’s doing good.

And after months and month of searching and trying and even getting scammed, I finally have my first job interview tomorrow/today (it’s 1am EST) for a seasonal contract job in my field. Trying to pray that discernment outweighs my desperation and I can pick up on any red flags before I sign a contract, if I get the offer, lord willing.