Hi all, Born again Christian for nearly 3 years here. Been with a male friend for nearly a month, not dating per day but he definitely likes me in a romantic way. I went back to his house to make pizza and we ended up kissing and one thing led to another and whilst kissing he was rubbing my private parts, I said no to him putting his fingers inside of you get me.. Idk what came over me, I have had issues with pornography and chronic masterbation and. I struggle to stop myself . We didn’t have penetrative sex nor oral sex because I’m waiting till marriage. He didn’t seem to understand and wanted more but I stood my ground every time. I don’t want a penis inside any hole until my wedding day end of. I feel so guilty and shameful but it is what it is. He’s nice and we get on well but he’s not my type plus we differ on views due to my religious beliefs. So this evening I messaged him and thanked him saying I’ve had fun etc just I don’t think we’d be compatible because we both want different things. Am I an ass for being honest? Plus will I be punished for what I did? I regret it and repent but IMO I don’t see it as no different to touching myself :( my period is due soon so idk I could be being dramatic