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I have been struggling for a very long time with my faith and my marriage. We have not had a good marriage for a long time. We tried counseling but she just refuses to go now. I am finally getting to a good point in faith and establishing a good trajectory and personal relationship with God. I usually feel like she hinders my growth or at bare minimum does not really support it. I have wanted to leave but still feel bound for better or worse. I can’t get past the idea that God would not want me to be this unhappy and not getting the love and support I need. But I know the Bible states multiple places that he hates divorce and should only be allowed in the case of infidelity. Any good thoughts that can help this situation?